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[07 Mar 2004|12:14am] |
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From now on my livejournal will be for friends only due to a past harrasser. Please post a comment here if you wish to be added as a friend. Thanks!
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[04 Feb 2004|04:10pm] |
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NOTHING!!!!! MWA~ HA~HA!!!!! |
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mblah,
woof
wanna go far far away.
wanna see a perfect solar eclipse.
wanna go to ucsc with meg.
wanna go to alaska and become an eskimo....not really.
wanna go to hawaii with meg.
wanna see the aurora borealis too.
wanna studio of my own.
woof
mblah.
How's that for an imperfect haiku???!!
...booja
nap time
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| He he he, what a brilliant writer |
[25 Jan 2004|09:27pm] |
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Shadow's Fall is HILARIOUS. I have never before heard sex referred to as the horizontal bop.
That
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| Shadow's Fall |
[21 Jan 2004|08:45pm] |
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Shadows Fall ~ best.... quote..... ever....!!!
'Bruin Bear came trotting back. "Did you hear what he called me? He called me a demon! And hellspawn! I mean, do I even look like a demon? I'm a fucking teddy bear!"'
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| gummy in my tummy don't be a dummy and eat some yummy~ I wish I had some gummy worms |
[13 Jan 2004|04:13pm] |
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Desire! U2, what's with U2 lately!? |
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Well, I don't know about you but I'm starving. Bring on the grilled cheese. Oh baby baby.
So, nothing much happened today, but I was in a very good mood. I joked around a lot with my friends in class. It's good when you know that some people like you. I didn't use to believe it, but now that I do, I'm a much happier person for it. Optimism really does work so much better for me! Happiness is such a blessing. Anyway, I have renewed hope for Santa Cruz after speaking with Meg today. She reminded me that it was one of the easier UC's to get into. Seventy percent acceptance rate or something?? I don't know, but I know that I'm happy now. Maybe it's the grilled cheese sandwich, or maybe its the song "where the streets have no name" playing now. Or maybe it's the way that cool light filters into my cave-like room as the heater and sheepskin slippers warm my ill-circulated toes. Whatever it is, it feels good. Megnut! Feel better will ya? Just take a nap, and you'll feel better! Booja!
I send my love to all of you.
As corny as that sounds, Lol.
I really do love my friends though, I don't know where I'd be without them. Especially Meg.
Mr Dick said something really hilarious today. Someone mentioned "dough" as in money. Then he said that it used to be "bread", and now it's like "toast" or something. He says that in 20 years we'll be asking our parents for "crutons" for the prom. lol. As each generation passes, the term for money gets toastier. Dough to bread to toast to crutons. Lol, hilarious! I'm just easily amused, I suppose.
See you later, homework calls!
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[15 Dec 2003|12:32am] |
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I'm a lot more like a dog than I realized:
I need proof that people love me every day or I'll get depressed. Esp. physical contact: hence the hug I give my mom every day for five minutes, I swear. I love her so much.(my dad can go you know where, oh by the way, I choked on water today and my dad just called me and asked what the hell I was doing. I almost died, that's how bad the choking was. bro said he SO came to my rescue. :( )
I love to play, I'm eternally youthful(most of the time)
I just like dogs. much more than cats by the way.
I should get back to studying. drat!!! got too distracted.
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| "My heart goes bang bang"~ Oingo Boingo go go go go go Waah, headache!! |
[09 Dec 2003|03:10pm] |
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Wow, my head really hurts. ouch. Headaches are stoopid. Anyway. let's see. Oh yeah. LOL. Today the ceiling fell on Brandon Leutbecker. FUNNY FUNNY STUFF. he was sitting at his desk in Myth and Fantasy class. there was a spot on the ceiling that was getting moldy and wet for a looong while. It started dripping almost on him and right when he got up from his desk, two rotten panels in the ceiling gave way and splatterd onto his desk along with a bit o' water. The other kids thought it looked rather like the ceiling was trying to pee on him. The whole class just laughed at that incident. I can't belive the TIMING of that kid. I swear, had he waited any longer that panel would have fallen right on top o' his head. Typical Novato classroom, dang. Wow, made me laugh so hard. I'm still giggling here. I'll remember THAT for the rest of my life. LOL.
I talked to John May about a music site he suggested I go to for my compositions. Apparently he composes techno music! Way cool. I wish I could hear some of his stuff, If he's telling the truth. Maybe he can explain to me what some things are that I just don't get. the site is fruity loops or something. I'll have to look. i'm excited if it's as good as he says it is!
I actually fell asleep in the library at lunch today. it serves me right for staying up past three. Not my fault though. I started homework right when I got home and it still took me FREAKING FOREVER!! Anyway, Leah Gaynor met me in the library and she gave me a new job. So I hope to get 30 bucks soon. I still need to finish Matt's project too, wince, it's been months, oh well. Kim never finished his painting anyway. So I fell asleep in the library and actually dreamed...though I don't exactly remember what it was about, unfortunately.
I really like how my art project is turning out. I'm very happy with 80's dude. yay. my friend wants to kiss him. Not letting her drooling lips on MY paper. Just kidding, she just wanted him to come to life. Arg, look at the time gotta go. Love you all.
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| I'm artistic. Fans are cool. death isn't |
[07 Dec 2003|04:43pm] |
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A lot happened today..phew
I was chosen as most artistic girl in the senior standouts. they gave me a lay and a party hat that says :Most artistic, catie ver...." blabla. The weird thing is that Jeff Bang was also chosen as most artistic (guy of course). We both were most artistic in the last year of middle school. Quelle coincidence! Its funny how when you get the spotlight, people flock to you. I must have been hugged twenty times today. Even this guy I didn't know walked up to me and asked which senior standout I received. He asked if I was an artist and stuff like that, then left. Now, that would have made me feel even better had he been taller and more attractive...oh well. Can't ask for everything.
Everyone liked my soundtrack. it made me feel really happy. Miranda said that I was just sooo talented. I really was ecstatic about that. fans are funny sometimes. Wow...I just realized...I have fans. That's pretty darn cool. wow...
(stares into space for ten minutes)
Ok, back now.
It turns out a really cool guy died. cole bryan. It's really sad. I can't believe he's gone. May told me. It seems like just yesterday that we were singing Bohemian Rhapsody together in art, being as how we were the only ones who knew the lyrics by heart. that really messed my day up. Awww maaaan.
...it's so sad. I wish he didn't die. Poor kiddo.
:(
I'm sleepy. Goo'night
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| YES! DONE! FINITO!!! |
[07 Dec 2003|01:24am] |
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MY MUSIC!!!! MWA HAHAHAHAHA |
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All riiight!!!(in Quagmire voice~that I happen to do well, thankyouverymuch)
I just finished my soundtrack!!! Woohoo. I thought it'd never get finished. I was so worried(poutpout). So, since it took me so long, everyone I know must listen to it and pretend to enjoy it. Got it!!?(threatens you with a broadsword)(I love narrating my actions) Good.
Wow, I'm hungry. Really. I haven't eaten in hours and hours.
Blaah...
Stop grumbling. Sometimes I swear my nickname should be
Rumble-Belly Bug. It's really catchy and so true..
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| gotta steal from the rich, when they don't know I'm coming, gotta give to the poor, no time for love |
[06 Dec 2003|02:02am] |
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How come no one puts me in their friends list? Do they not like me or something? Are they thinking, "I don't like Catie because..yeah..i just don't, and I don't want her to read my journal"?
Wow, that's depressing
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I saw this one dude's friend list and thought, wow he has a lot of friends. the list took up more than a page..
how come he's got buddies...
:(
I think its just that the people I know have so many friends already that they didn't think to add me to their list, you know, just kind of didn't think about it.
Wow..I am really being a nasty person now. I hate myself when I'm like this, so I'll just bite my tongue.
I just wished that more people would notice me. maybe more people will when I play my soundtrack for them on monday. I sometimes feel that people only hang around me because of my artistic abilities amd mooch my skills off me. Ahhh, man. why do I talk like this? I'm not disliked. Really I'm not. I have tons of friends..yeah. Tons..
so why do I feel so separated from each and every one of them?
Not cool.
I'm trying to be positive here. But I need some proof. Somewhere..out there, there's proof.
'Till then, I'll try to be less severe, okay?
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phew, that takes a lot
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what happened to David?
Is he still alive?
It didn't seem like he remembered me or cared when I responded to his livejournal. I was so sad.
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[04 Dec 2003|01:50am] |
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Today in class, we did the voting for senior standouts. Most people asked me how to spell my name, so I found out there was a most artistis section. I just realized..what if HE would be nominated for the most artistic guy. How akward would that be when we had to take the photo together. Well, I might not happen. I might not be voted most artistic anyway. There are a lot of good musicians at our school too. It's nerveracking.
Oh well, Must get back to studying. Heaven help me if i don't get an A on the Calc test tomorrow.
Wow, it's already 1:38? when meg left I literally passed out on my bed. Seriously, I got dizzy and just passed out. When I woke up I lost all sense of time. I felt like I was going nuts or something. I felt like I slept 7 hours, but it was only one hour. It was the most confused I've been since attempting to talk to my cat and hamper after taking codein. my bro woke me up. So, tomorrow I guess I'm going to pass out again. What fun, what fun. I'm not kidding, waddle happen if i just don't get sleep??
ARG! School is too time-consuming!!!!
Taryn! where's that script for the newsletter comic?
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| The most hopeful I've been in a while! |
[02 Dec 2003|08:58pm] |
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Yes! I'm excited. My mom is going to see her ear doctor sometime soon..maybe tomorrow? and he is going to have her try on the latest hearing aid. It's supposed to be a digital hearing aid that works REALLY REALLY well. Oh gods. I'm going to be soo happy if she can finally hear normally! I really REALLy hope this works out(crosses fingers). If she can, then I'll show her all the music she's been missing out on her whole life. She'll be able to finally hear my compositions too.
Oooh, everybody hope it works!!
Oh, more good news, I got accepted into Sonoma state and Humbolt. Now I just have to wait for the rest of the colleges to say they've accepted me...here's hoping!! :D
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| Let's all see who can break Catie's finger first |
[02 Dec 2003|03:26pm] |
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I have a tummy ache
I'm cold
I slammed my finger in the solid wooden door of the bathroom
My finger is now bleeding and the size of a small labrador
I am working on 4 hours of sleep
I have to do my homework lest i repeat last nights problem
I laughed the hardest I ever had in a while in art.
Ms stoopid darby thought that my picture of Nick Rhodes was a portrait of Boy George. How degrading is that? :(
I have my friend a piece of chocolate b/cause she was having a bad week because she didn't get to go to Finals in the Sophomore Speach Contest and she felt like she was being oppressed by a certain Jew. Don't ask.
I'm listening to the diva song from The Fifth Element
yup
my finger hurts
that's enough.
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| "Word of the day is bee. But B is a letter, dude! Oh???"~ Who's Line is it Anyway? |
[01 Dec 2003|06:49pm] |
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The highlights of my day:
My friend said she bought my christmas gift..I wasn't even expecting one from her..made me all warm and fuzzy inside.
My other friend randomly made a code name for the place I was conceived: in the sink.... gag, wonderful imagination. At first it was a gumball machine, then she realized that that wasn't possible...or was it?
Same friend taught me to make blow up paper box thingies
I watched somebody(a poor little boy, sniff) on tv in physiology get plastic surgery. The entire face was practically peeled back to reveal the surgeons cutting open the skull...mr. dick said it was the cutting edge technology at the time...no pun intended
My counselor calling me up to the office to finally make me realize that letters of recommendation were for private universities only...and to let me know that I'm in the top 25 percent of my class
My dad looking on ebay for pencil erasers...
My friend asked me if she was leaking
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[30 Nov 2003|10:37pm] |
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Have you ever wished you could stimulate brain farts to get rid of headaches?
okay...
so that was weird. you can't blame me
I feel all pukey and heachachey and my homework isn't nearly done...
gotta do french and econ and compose a soundtrack...
Oh what fun
da dee do
i think I'm delerious
blahhhh
someone just shoot me..with a tranquilizer
so i'd have an excuse to not go to school tomorrow
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| finished application~ yahoohoohooie |
[29 Nov 2003|10:33pm] |
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Anyone know any good Coldplay songs?
Tell me, my little lemmings..
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| Blarg and fondue |
[29 Nov 2003|04:27pm] |
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alright, facing difficulties again...bla
at least i managed to get some done.
why is it freezing!?
Arg
Meg came over and i felt better
she game me a bit o' hope
well, let's keep trying with the accursed application
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you know, coca cola just doesn't taste good anymore to me. oh well, it's a good thing to give up next to pepsi.
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see you later
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[29 Nov 2003|03:01pm] |
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I might just lose it if I don't get this uc application in on time!!
Whaddle I do???!!
the pages aren't loading.
Everytime a page shows up as
THE PAGE CANNOT BE DISPLAYED
i start crying.
What if it stays like this?!!
It's not fair!
Everything'll be ruined!!!
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| Today, er yesterday actually was just a living hell. I'm so glad it's over...really |
[27 Nov 2003|02:00am] |
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This HAD to have been the worst Thanksgiving I have ever had. It gave me no reason to be thankful for anything at the moment...
because everything was FREAKIN PURE TORTURE!!
Jeeze. There's so much I have to say and I just can't find a way to begin. Well, let's start with what happened at dinner, you already know what happened before...the boob incident. And asking me if she could inspect my eyebrows. And asking me if i had a boyfriend yet. Jesus, just taking the daggar and twisting it, isn't she?
Actually shortly after that I heard my gramma talking about me to my parents behind my back. Talking about my hair and every damn thing she could think to talk about. I went to my room and hung out with my bro. He made me feel better, just knowing that he hated her too.
Let's start with how much I really love my brother on Thanksgiving. Really. I can't belive how much he stuck up for me today against my relatives. Sometimes, he really is my guardian. I was mixing my mashed potatos with my peas when my dad furiously asked me, "what is this? Art 101?"
He then looked at my brother and asked, "what is this? drama 101?"
the reason he asked my brother that was because my brother and i don't talk much at the table on thanksgiving and christmas because of Gramma Freaky over there. So maybe it's looks like we have an attitude problem or something. I don't get it, we act fine in my opinion. We don't misbehave at all...
Anyway, on with the story.
After dad said that to my brother, my brother glared at dad and, instead of defending himself, he said, "What's with you? Why are you picking on Catie? She's just mixing her food." I wanted to defend paul too, but i was afraid of dad killing us at the double rebel whammy. So I just sat there, staring at my food, shocked to the bone, expecting him to kick us out of the house. I REALLY FELT THAT. I WAS SO TERRIFIED. SOMEONE ADOPT ME PLEASE! I could almost feel my dad's shock and anger at the back-talk. Amazing, incredibly lucky, he said nothing and the table went quiet. eventually mom, gramma and dad started talking again like normal parent people adult things. Then my dad asked me what I had to be thankful for. I sat there thinking, then OF COURSE, my grandma freaky had to say: "She should be thankful for her good looks!"
I kind of snapped then. I wanted so badly to leap across the table and smack that obsession from her head. Instead I just said..rather acidly, that I was thankful for my brains. It's more than appearance for me. How dare she think that for me, looking good was more important than having intellect? Damned old hag. Really. I dislike her immensely.
So the rest of dinner went along like usual. Small conversation..bla bla bla. I stole away from the table and found the nap that was waiting for me on the couch. Gramma need my bro to drive her home. I was trying so hard to look asleep so i wouldn't have to saw goodbye but my mom practically rolled me off the accursed couch (I shouldn't say that, the couch is my friend). So I went to hug my gramma freaky. She kissed me and said how gorgeous I was again. Damn it. Curse it. I hate it.
I HATE THIS.
The worst thing is that she's dying or something and I HAVE to act good and nice and all. She humiliated me so much today. I can't even begin to explain the shock I felt. the stress'll prolly cause me to break out again. Damn.
I need someone to comfort me...
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Well....Happy THANKSGIVING ALL!
I hope your thanksgiving was MUCH better than mine!
:)
Goodnight. sweet dreams my dear friends. I love you all.
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